So, it’s been a year now…..

I listened to it. Our song. It has taken me a full year to be able to listen, but I did it. I didn’t shed a tear. I did get that sick filling in my gut that I call betrayal. I just want to know that he misses me. I don’t know why. Am I that self-absorbed that I need to know that he misses me?

These words meant so much to me at one time. Now they’re all just a lie.

The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus’ “Your Guardian Angel”

When I see your smile
Tears run down my face
I can’t replace
And now that I’m strong
I have figured out
How this world turns cold
and it breaks through my soul
And I know I’ll find
deep inside me
I can be the one

I will never let you fall(let you fall)
I’ll stand up with you forever
I’ll be there for you through it all(though it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It’s okay. It’s okay. It’s okay.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I’ll be the one

I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I’ll stand up with you forever
I’ll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you’re my, you’re my, my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don’t throw that away
Cuz I’m here for you
Please don’t walk away and
Please tell me you’ll stay, stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I’ll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I’ll stand up with you forever
I’ll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven.

I’ll throw a little humor in here and say that our love was like this group’s fame. See? I’m still here. I’m still alive and I can still laugh!

Peace from the Rogue Mare

 

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3 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Phoenix
    Jan 26, 2012 @ 11:43:29

    It took me a year to listen to the song that wa mine and the Ex’s. I felt angry when I did because the words had been lies but also relieved that the song no longer had any emotional hold on me. Keep moving on x

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  2. Karl Rose
    Jan 26, 2012 @ 16:12:43

    Sara Evans ” Little bit stronger” . Enough said.

    Reply

  3. MayDay
    Jan 31, 2012 @ 22:45:18

    I hated not being able to listen to certain bands after my break up. I still can’t listen to some of them.. but hopefully some day. Good for you girl.

    Reply

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